My Best Friend

It kills me to see her in so much pain. She is miserable and there is nothing I can do about it. I am in no position to offer her comfort, as it feels like the thousand miles between us is a million, if not more. So many times she was there to pick me up off the floor...to see me through my darkest moment and even when I went back for more, she supported me. She never said "I told you so", although she could have. I would give anything to be there for her the way she always was for me. The guilt I feel is indescribable. Here I am pursuing my dreams and it feels as though I am leaving her behind to deal with the cold, cruel world of small town quicksand alone. When I hear her crying on the other end of the line, even though it is ever so faint, it rips my heart in two. Not because she cries, but because I am not there to dry the tears and help her on her feet. She is stronger than I ever was. I could not have done it alone, and yet here she is moving forward...one foot in front of the other...never giving up...constantly fighting this battle with noone by her side. I cry for my best friend but in my heart I know she will prevail. She always does, and with such grace and beauty. Not only is she the strongest woman I know, she is the most beautiful. I bet she doesn't even realize just how much I admire her.

Finally

It is so amazing to finally have someone love me the way I have always wanted to be loved. I have had my heart broken so many times, that I was certain it was now dust in the wind, broken beyond repair. I was ready to give up...then he walked into my life. Well, maybe "walk" is the wrong word to describe his arrival. He swept quietly in through a door I didn't know I had left open and before I knew it, I was head over heels in love. I had been looking for love in all the wrong places and when it hit me, at first I didn't even know what it was. How could I? I wasn't used to being treated this way...being complimented and showered with attention. It took me a while but I somehow managed to accept that fact that he loves me. He really loves me for me and not for what I can give him. He loves me totally, unconditionally, just the way that I love him in return.

For Rob

I love you...
for all that you are
and all that you strive to be.
I love you...
for your gentle touch
and the way you look at me.
I love you...
for the love that you give
and you pledge of eternity.
I love you...
for what I became
because you believed in me.
I love you...
for your kind heart
and genuine sensitivity.
I love you...
for being my perfect match
despite the faults you see.
I love you...
with all of my heart
just as you love me.

Love Me

Hold me forever
Don't ever let go
Love me completely
With heart and soul
Whisper so softly
Into my ear
Tell me the words
That I long to hear
Open your heart
Share it with me
Allow me to love you
For eternity
Stay with me always-
The rest of my life
For now and for always
As husband and wife.